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Dear Twelve Year Old Self, Next year things start to get crazy. The best thing to do is just hold on tight and remember to feel. Don't freeze yourself off because it takes too damn long to unthaw again. Don't assume that just because someone is a good acquaintance they will also make a good close friend. By the same standard, don't assume that just because someone IS a close friend that they can't become something more. You know the fuzzy feelings you get over Emma Thompson when you watch 'Much Ado About Nothing'? And they way you don't get them when you're with Andrew? Take the hint. Clare is always going to be more conventional than you. This isn't your fault, it isn't a bad thing, and it isn't something you should try and emulate. But it will mean that you're going to embarass her a lot over the next eight years. Probably longer. But she still loves you for who you are, and you might even earn a bit of grudging respect. But you'll probably never go out partying together, and if you do you'll hate the music even if you have a secret crush on one of her friends. Chapel is a lot less boring if you sneak in 'The HitchHiker's Guide To The Galaxy' inside your hymn book. People will tell you 'It's not a popularity contest'. It is. Boycott it. You can help people, but you can't save them from theirselves. Learn to recognise the difference. Don't assume you'll change over the next seven years, you'll just grow into your skin. Don't try to change, it doesn't work. You're never going to to be cool, but you are going to rapidly cease caring in about two year's time. Lucy Harkness will play a role in that. Paradoxically, you'll think being a geek is cool. Work on that and try to establish some helpful computer skills before it's too late. There's nothing more pathetic than a computer illiterate nerd. You don't really want to go to Oxford. Write this down and remind your 17 year old self this when she's stressing about her interview. You already KNOW you want to go to Edinburgh, even if it's just because it's in Scotland and you heard there's a castle. You're going to apply for the sake of applying and be a real bitch to yourself in the process. Read Stephen Fry's autobiography as soon as possible in order to fully understand this. If you want to wear a kaftan to non-uniform day in a year's time, when everyone else is in jeans or Kappa tracksuits, do it. They all look a lot stupider than you do. The only reason you're paranoid about your parents getting a divorce is because your father is the only man who'd fuck you up if he left. It is the height of cliche to read 'The Bell Jar' with a box of aspirin by the bed. Don't even bother, you won't take them and you'll only lose them when you have bad period pain. Which you'll be looking at abiut a year's time. Read Germaine Greer NOW so you don't get grossed out. A certain person, whose name shall not be mentioned for fear of sullying these pages, dyes her hair. When you consider that, perspective happens. Other people are probably more insecure than you. If they take it out on you, start believing in karma because it's going to bite them in the ass by the end of high school. The above two points are related. Remember that. Start watching 'Star Trek: Voyager' NOW, because otherwise you'll get to 18 and have seven seasons to catch up on. Accept that Wil Wheaton's response to this idea is more interesting that yours, but rest assured that it is merely because he played Wesley Crusher on The Next Generation and you did not. ______________________________ we have come so far :: it is over

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